No Man's Land

[Scott Kitzenberger]

I still feel like I'm in No Man's Land as I feel like I don't fit in at any of my local Messianic Congregations anymore-like their too "Christian" for me now.

I have for some time visited, on occassions, Orthodox and Conservative synagogues.  There is a Conservative synagogue called Shir Hadash that has music and singing and I really like it there!  I have been invited to participate a few times now since visiting over the past year.  I have carried the Torah among the congregation; I have held up the Torah before the congregation; and recently I was invited to make aliyah to the Bema for my first time!  That was incredible to say the least!  But all times I have participated have been great!  There is a STRONG Presence of Adonoi there! 

I have also been involved at the Messianic congregation Beth Abraham for the last 3 years reading hebrew portions from the parshas (sidrahs) at the Bema as well as sharing 5-minute commentaries of the parshas at the pulpit.  I have even preached a regular sermon there in the absence of the pastor (I am an ordained pastor & formerly pastored an independent Baptist church, pre-Torah).  However, I feel more at home at the conservative congregation than anywhere else. 

My prayer to Hashem is that He lead me in His Truth by the Ruach of Elohim.  I have talked with Orthodox and Conservative Rabbis about my situation and  my journey of how I have arrived to where I am now.  There is some consideration of conversion.  After all, I originally converted to Christianity & identified with that.  Now I need something to identify with where I'm going & where I want to end up.

[KnuNetzer]

I haven't found anywhere yet since trying to become a Netzari. I say trying because I am real8stuc and my background is Christianity and the thing is, I consider Christianity to have half the truth and half the error and I also consider Judaism to have half the truth and half the error so it's a slow process for me and as I have no one who thinks similar and no congregation I'm forced to go it alone. Same issue for finding a wife, how when the Torah parameters are 100% against 99.999% of our culture??

Then you get those anoying teachings from both Christianity and Judaism that say no man should be an island because it is supposed to be community and that we arn't supposed to be yolked to unbelievers.......

So what gives?

"Israel scattered on the hills (nations)"

I can say I definetly have an idea of your problems.
Bad init!